Tethered

You make cigarette smoke
tasty
drunken nights sacred
and faith justified.

You give me space for anger
my insistence on lies
wrapped around
your awkward truth.

Your long, sinewy arms
have been there all along
snug
around my torso
as my entire ribcage
breathes.

Your long, sturdy legs
hold you up
as you navigate a treacherous world
uncertain
yet they always
bring you back.

You are a love in slow motion
a benign hurricane
that took months to build.
I didn’t know you were coming
but I see there’s no need
to board up my windows.

I want to bury myself in your hair
not like a schoolgirl
nor a mother —
like a she-wolf in a meadow
splayed out in the sun.
Somehow you always
smell like home.

I never thought
you’d say yes
never thought you’d say
you missed me
ten minutes after you left
Never thought
you missed me at all.

I could bask
in your amber eyes
for days
not getting lost
but being found.
This is not worship –
it’s grace
we meet halfway
in the space
between.
There’s always something
to say.

You make the distasteful
tolerable
traits I loathe elsewhere
I adore in you
not because I’ve abandoned myself
but because you make it worth it.
I will spend
one of my remaining heartaches
on you.

You require no collar
or leash.
No matter where you go
or how far you wander
we’re already tethered
at the heart.

© S. Rinderle, 4/4/20

4 thoughts on “Tethered

  1. This is powerful, and inspires such a deep ache of longing in myself I try to keep at a distance. These words are really such a direct line to your experience, very visceral and real. My favorite part: burying myself in your hair like a she-wolf splayed out in the sun. I ache for what is missing in my life. I ache for the risk you are taking. But when you say it is worth one remaining heartache, I believe you.

    • Wow! Thank you Nancy! As a fellow poet I especially treasure knowing how this poem landed for you. I love that she-wolf imagery too. The ache is real and painful and precious. Love! ❤

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